Miserable

Hello, been a miserable day for me, but not (phew) for Lew! Woke up with an unhappy tummy so couldnt take Lesley for her make-over at Lizzie's salon. Did, however, manage to do my exercises this morning, and upgraded from doing them trying to avoid the bed in the bedroom to going downstairs in the lounge, lots more room, with the curtains shut!! And Lew came down to watch and found it very funny! Diane came at 10.30am and bathed Lew while I showered, then we popped to the Post Office to post a parcel of cloth nappies for my friend Ceinwyn and a book that had been ordered from www.greenmetropolis.com. Said bye to Diane (who had had the best time with Lew, making him laugh and smile loads today!) and popped in to see Roz. Lew stayed with Emma for a little while (Emma is looking good on her diet, well done Emma and keep it up, be positive and focus on your goals!) and Roz and I went to Ilva to look at cheapo furniture. Then Roz had to go and do her motherly duties while I went to see my doctor. You see, I have been worried about my mental condition for a bit now (haha yes I am sure everybody who knows me will say - we've been worried about your mental condition for years!!!). It has been getting me down because I see-saw from being ridiculously happy, almost hysterical, wanting to hug everyone and talk constantly about absolute rubbish, saying inappropriate stuff, laughing at not really that funny stuff, and just being a bit mad, and then feeling so low that I can see no purpose in my life at all. Well the doctor is referring me to a psychiatrist (about time I hear you cry!) for a diagnosis and a medication review so we'll see what happens there. This afternoon (for me) was one of my very low afternoons. I could not face being on my own and I could not face going home so with Lew asleep in the back, I went for a drive around and got lost (haha!) and saw some fantastic houses (somewhere called Moss I believe near Askern) and I texted Classic FM (who we were listening to on the car radio) and they read out our text, cooooool! Which made me smile, cheered me up loads which I really needed so thank you Classic FM! Then we ended up in Bentley so I took Lew to the pet shop to see the rabbit and the hamsters and fish and stuff, then we popped in to Morrisons and then we went to visit Jodie's mum Angela for a cup of tea! When Lew saw Jodie, his face just lit up!!! He loves her so much! It was lovely also for Lew to finally meet Jodie's mum and brother and sister (Courtney and Bradley). We had a good chat and I hope we can become friends as we are almost the same age (okay I'm OLDER than Angela, but only by a couple of years!). Then we came home, Jodie is staying over tonight, got Lew in bed - he was sooooo tired! Had some tea and now we're going to sit down to watch Casino Royale (the new James Bond). So that has been our day. Just want to say belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my nieces Millie (who was 3 on 18th March) and Daisy (who was 15 on 20th March) and to my mum who was ... dunno how old!! ... on 16th March and to my almost OLDEST friend Rosalind who was 41 on 18th March! Also, welcome home to Yolanda, Stephen and the children who have just returned from a NTM conference in Germany - jet setters! Baby massage tomorrow, then seeing Philippa (social worker) tomorrow afternoon as couldnt face coming home this afternoon to meet her. James is off work tomorrow to do housey things. No new photos to post, but will get clicking to give you all something to look at! Lots of love to everybody, especially Tilly who has blue lips and Eliza who has a new tooth!